14 Sep 14
oh is today your birthday ? i hope you had a great day so far ! :D and of course, HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYY xx

It’s tomorrow, but aww thank you!! I’m not super looking forward to it but this is really nice of you. 


8 Sep 14
i just wanted to say that you're a big inspiration for me. you're a bit of my rolemodel. :) and im glad that ive been following you this long. xxx

This is very very sweet and also a little bit bewildering. I don’t feel like I could possibly be a role model to anybody, but, thank you. 

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4 Sep 14
Have you watched the other series of GBBO yet? I think you'll really love series 2 and 3. In series 2 there's a really cute fail baker named Rob who has pretty green eyes and wears a lot of jumpers

I haven’t! I’ve been considering it though and that is a v convincing argument, so thank you. :)

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3 Sep 14
After seeing all your posts about A Secret History, I finally got around to reading it. I just finished it and really, really liked it. I was wondering what other books you like or if you have any recommendations?

First of all, I’m flattered by this question and also thrilled that you enjoyed The Secret History because YES GOOD IT IS THE BEST BOOK EVER. But it’s actually kind of rare for me to come across a book that I really really love, I can be quite picky? So it’s hard for me to think of ones that I love enough to classify as favourites or recommend to people.

But The Secret History is definitely my favourite, along with everything Douglas Adams has ever written. His stuff is obviously completely different, but I didn’t feel like I could talk about books I like without mentioning him! Because you liked TSH I would recommend Donna Tartt’s The Goldfinch as well, but I’m iffy on The Little Friend…I read it recently and it was good, but the ending is maddeningly inconclusive. So, it’s probably still worth reading if you like her style, but be prepared to feel extremely unsatisifed by it. (EXTREMELY.)

I like almost everything I’ve read by Haruki Murakami - my favourite of his is probably The Wind-up Bird Chronicle which I’m rereading at the moment. That’s a heavy one to start with though so if you’ve never read anything of his before, I’d recommend The Elephant Vanishes which is a collection of short stories that would give you an idea of his style. I also like The Virgin Suicides and Middlesex by Jeffrey Eugenides, and The Dreamers by Gilbert Adair. And there are a couple of books I’ve only read once and found difficult to get through, but still loved and would recommend - Ada or Ardor by Nabokov, and House of Leaves by Mark Danielewski. (The latter is a real challenge, it’s more like a scary maze than a book? But so cool!)

That’s probably it except for like, Harry Potter, and His Dark Materials, which I think everyone should already have read anyway.

(It’s probably worth noting that Middlesex, The Dreamers, and Ada or Ardor all have incest in them. Because I am nothing if not predictable. If you read TSH you’ve obviously dealt with the subject before but I thought I should mention it in case it’s something you prefer to avoid!! But if you’re a weirdo like me and have a particular interest in it, feel free to ask for incest-specific book recommendations…because I have a bunch of those…)

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30 Jul 14
hi! i just wanted to thank you loads because your blogs makes me feel so much better about my body and sexuality, and thank you for being such a talented and kind person :)

Awww wow, what a lovely message! This is awesome, I’m so glad. And thank you! That really means a lot to me. ♥♥

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29 Jun 14
you have an eternal scout patch on your jacket?!!! i have been meaning to get one for absolute ages i am so jealous wow

I do!! I love it so much. You should totally get one. Shipping to the UK makes it more expensive obviously, so I asked for mine for Christmas.


I really want to cover the whole back of my jacket in patches but so far I only have that one, and Marceline…


…so it looks a bit weird at the moment.

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26 Jun 14
Are you still friends with Jamie tracedust?

Yeah! We don’t talk so much anymore but we still follow each other and I still think she’s awesome. <3

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23 Jun 14
Are u like ashamed that u used to be in the 1D fandom or u just are annoyed people ask bc it has been so long?

Oh, no, I’m just annoyed that people ask! I’m not ashamed. Like, I’m still friends with people in the fandom and everything. It’s just that personally, I’m over it. And I feel like that should be obvious by this point, so it’s surprising (and frustrating) how often people ask me questions about them. And I still get a lot of 1D blogs following me, which is puzzling. I mean, obvs they can still like what I post even if it’s not 1D-related. It’s just a little odd and I never know if they’re expecting something they’re just not gonna get.

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23 Jun 14
are you in one direction fandom???


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22 Jun 14
It finally happened! After years of following you and seeing a bazillion different gifs/pics/whatever of The Dreamers, I decided to actually watch it myself :D But having now seen the film, I'm quite curious about something. If you don't mind telling me, why do you like that movie so much? Not saying that it's not a film worth liking, I'm just curious as to your specific interest in it, because you're clearly such a big fan :)

Oh no, I’m really bad at describing why I love things. :( I think with The Dreamers, it’s not so much that I think it’s this objectively amazing film that everyone must watch, it’s more of a personal significance thing? It probably has a lot to do with the fact that I was pretty young when I first saw it, 15 I think, and it just made such a huge impression on me. I didn’t immediately love it - I was actually pretty freaked out by it at first, but I kept watching out of morbid curiosity, and afterwards I remember telling my friends at school all about the crazy fucked up film I’d just seen. (And then I made them watch it too.) It was just one of those things that like, stuck in my head? I realised that I couldn’t stop thinking about it and talking about it and that it must’ve been because I found it so interesting as well as weird.

The main thing I love about it is the relationship between Theo and Matthew and Isabelle. They started my interest in incest and threesomes, so the movie is obviously going to have a special place in my heart for that, haha. But I remember it made me think critically for the first time about the taboo of incest, and I was also very interested in the three-way relationship and I think subconsciously wanting to experience that. Also, I discovered it around the same time that I was beginning to figure out I was attracted to boys as well as girls, so the fact that Matthew was attracted to both of the twins struck a chord with me.

I can’t really put this into words (I keep trying and failing) but I just really love the way the movie handles the more sexual aspects of the relationship? I feel like the sexuality in the film is just very sweet and innocent, weirdly, because they’re isolated from the rest of the world and just discovering all this stuff on their own and it’s kind of a game until it becomes something more. There’s definitely some shame there but the fact that it’s just the three of them gives them a certain freedom to explore their sexualities in a way that’s really like…I don’t know, genuine. 

I love that they’re so open with each other as well. This is another thing that’s hard to describe, and is better portrayed in the book I think, but I feel like they just kind of totally surrender themselves to each other, for a short time at least. It’s like, anything goes. That lack of boundaries is really fascinating to me. I’m also fascinated by the way that, despite all of that, Matthew is still an outsider to some extent. He never fully manages to come between them, and it’s relatively easy for them to abandon him in the end even after everything they’ve been through together. Idk, in general I just really love all of the characters and the dynamics between them.

ALSO I love the apartment, and the clothes, and the soundtrack, and the actors. I think it kinda made me fall in love with Paris, too, and got me interested in French films in general. But yeah, I’d say the main reason is just the fact that I saw it at an ~impressionable age~ and it was sort of a sexual awakening for me almost.

Okay, so, that turned into an essay. I hope you don’t mind that I’m posting this publicly, I figured I may as well in case anyone else is wondering why I post about the film so much. And I’m glad you finally saw it! I hope you liked it, at least a little bit?? And I hope this goes some way towards explaining why I’m so passionate about it. Though it probably just seems like crazed rambling…